Palpable Word

In my sleep I was told that God's Word is tangible and palpable. Not referring to the Bible, but His actual words in any sense. My logic does not quite understand this but within myself I know this to be true.

Therapy

I went this morning to my orthopedist of whom does an unusual sort of physical therapy. After several visits in the past she eventually confided in me that she asks for Jesus to use her hands in particularly tough cases like mine. She does not massage or manipulate anything, she just puts her hands on my feet, neck, and shoulders (not at the same time). No pressing or anything but it works. Sometimes she will ask "Do you feel that?" and smile. Yes, I do. Today I felt a distinct tapping sensation on the middle underside of my great toe on my right foot. She said that is His hands doing the work on the region that effects the hypothalamus. I felt it again for a few seconds when I got home. I feel better today.

Changes

Reset the forgotten password and I will be posting again. There have been alot of changes in my life since I last posted and have restarted the blogging in order to keep a diary of sorts for the spiritual goings on. I really don't have a lot of spare time to include my really hectic daily life, but will keep you abreast of the basics. Between last year and now I have rededicated my life to Christ and have been having huge changes spiritually, emotionally and physically. I am currently undergoing chemo again since this past April as the breast cancer has metastasized to the bone and lymph nodes. This does not scare me as I know God is in control and I have placed my faith in He who provides all that I need. It is not an easy walk, but I know He is protecting me and the end result will be a positive one. This gift of faith helps me get through those dark times that chemo and bone pain can bring. I will take all the old entries from a spiritual spiral notebook I have been keeping and add them to the blog when I get sudden bursts of energy. There are some very exciting things going on and I would like to share them with you even if I run the risk of you thinking I am nuts. I am confident enough in my God and myself to not care what your opinion is, but if you have something positive to add feel free to comment.

Pain Management

Did not sleep last night as the pain is too much. Went to the hospital and they wanted to give me morphine but I don't want. I have been Asking God to manage my pain as Jesus went to the cross for this sort of thing and I do not like to take medication. Thus far I get along fine, but this week has been difficult. I told the Dr. I will actually start taking Ibuprofen on a daily basis which is a big deal for me, and I refuse to lay away in bed all doped up with the morphine option. Nothing special on the chest x-ray, so that is good news. Bumped into Ms Parp (July 27 post) and she said that she was taken off chemo as her disease is "stable", this is great news! I expect when I see her next she will have more good news!

Healing light of Jesus

Took ibuprofen the past 2 nights & slept a little better. Prayed for God to expose any events that may have wounded my soul in response to viewing a Katie Souza video series: http://www.xpmedia.com/dbbbEa5F1FfZ I have recurring dreams of my ex boyfriend since our nasty breakup 13ish years ago, so guess what I dreamt about? Bingo! I will need to rectify the situation... In the meantime I pray for the healing light of Jesus to shine on my heart and soul.

Church

Had a wonderful day at church. I really felt so much love for all the people there and I thank God for putting such a genuinely nice group of people there. They preached on suffering(!) and I went up for prayer (as usual these days). An old girl prayed for me and I looked up at the end of her prayer and I saw the intense love of Jesus in her eyes. I wrapped my arms around her and sobbed away for awhile. It is no coincidence that I found out she is a breast cancer survivor.

Hurricane is coming!

In my dream I felt: A Hurricane is coming!