Waking

Waking every hour during night. Pain is there but I have an impression that it is supposed to be there to wake me up, so I pray and wait on The Lord. Unusually hungry these nights.

Sleep

Not slept well in a few days, keep waking after 1-2 hours sleep. Prayed about this and got a response 1 hour later: I do not need to sleep so much. The pain that is keeping me awake is part of my training of sorts & I should get used to not sleeping so much.

Cocoon

Casual dream of a green caterpillar going into a cocoon. It went in and was going to seal off the last part like a door flap at the head. I was going to film the transition to show The Little One. My (heavily smoking) friend D was there and wanted to smoke the empty casing when it was finished.

Flaming Sword

Went for prayer after church service and was prayed for by the young preacher who fought off lymphoma and a lady. Lady sees a flaming sword of protection that is fighting for me. Just need to trust God and He will do the rest. I made a decision not to listen to the negative report and to change my doctor.

Permission

Episode of negative thinking where God reminded me that the devil has NO authority in my life as I am covered by The Blood. The enemy cannot touch me without God's or my own permission. This is liberating and yet so simple! God sees me as a finished product! Bad news from the Dr cannot change my status. I am taken care of by God in every way and the enemy cannot do anything to change this. God chose to heal me. The bone tumor was healed instantly & the lymph will come into line as well. God has a purpose in all of this.

Scan

I was waiting for my CT scan at the hospital and I had the opportunity to speak life to a woman there who was ready to give up. She told me she was so tired of fighting and did not know how long she could keep it up, then began to sob as she received the words of life that were given to her. I spoke love and life and light over her and she was blessed. God loves her and can heal her bone cancer too. There are so many desperate people there at this cancer hospital and I consider it an honor to be able to serve The Lord and give some hope and love to these folks.

Wings of Eagles

Getting my experimental parp inhibitor treatment and feeling pretty cruddy from the chemo I got only 3 days prior. After praying for relief from feeling like dog meat and not getting the desired results, I began to thank God for giving me wings as an eagle to rise above these situations (Isaiah 40:31). I happened to look out the window as I prayed this aloud and I saw an eagle soaring really high from my 9th floor window in downtown Brussels. (BTW-I have never seen or heard of eagles in Brussels). He was turning in a counterclockwise fashion and flying gracefully for a good 3 minutes. The windowpane obscured my view and I moved in the bed to continue to watch him and he was gone. As in disappeared.