Hangin with the brothers

I had a dream vision of me hanging out and chatting casually with Shadrach, Meshach, And Abednego. I knew they were brothers from a story in the Bible and we just were chatting away very casually about nothing that seemed noteworthy. At that time and after I woke up I could not remember the story of the 3 brothers so I looked it up the next morning (I had no Internet/Bible connection until morning at the hospital) I knew it was significant so I eagerly researched and found the story of the fiery furnace. How could I forget? God is reassuring me! He is good to me. The past couple weeks have been so physically difficult that I have wondered at times if I would make it through the night. God is sustaining me. He gives me everything I need. I am going through a fiery furnace, but my Lord is with me as He always has been.

Baptism

I had some people come to the house today to pray for me. I had never met them and they are visiting from the US (North Carolina). They had the gentillesse to come and pray for little ole me. God is good. I felt the Spirit and Gods presence the whole time they were here and had difficulty answering various questions as I was very weepy for some reason. I don't know why, as I do not usually have difficulty discussing my situation or answering questions. Today I guess I just had to "get it out" or something or perhaps I just was responding to the Presence. The couple prayed for me and my man to be baptized in the Holy Spirit. I have the Spirit but do not speak in tongues. Not for lack of asking or desire, it just has not happened for me. The Lord chooses to bless me in other ways so I cannot complain but one day I will speak in tongues... My man is now officially baptized in the Spirit! Tongues came immediately for him and I am so glad! He is pretty excited at the newfound spiritual experience and I am glad to have my man pray over me in the spirit language. I told him he will have to now pray in tongues over me until we get a breakthrough with my health. I am so excited for him and can't wait to see what else the Spirit has in store for him.

Hello again

I have taken a long break as I was having server issues and did not want to blog under those conditions. Quite a bit has happened since the last posting in every realm and I find myself in an unusual position. I just got released from the hospital afer 2.5 weeks of rest, tests, and treatment and am really happy to be home with my family. They ran an MRI of the brain last week and the results came back with more bad news. I have 2 lesions on the cerebellum area and perhaps a 3rd on the top area of my brain. This is not super shocking news as they discovered and treated 2 new lesions on/in the spine the week before. I have started IV chemo and next Monday will be the first completed cycle of Taxol which they tried in the very beginning (2.5 years ago) but discontinued abruptly because of nasty side effects. I am tolerating it well this time as the dose os lower but more frequent and they give me chemo pills that I take every day. The pills can perhaps reduce the size of the tumors in the brain and doc says and if that does not work they will do radiation therapy on my head. For the moment I am having mild neurological symptoms of my left leg being weak and they are giving me cortisone to help with that. The Lord has reminded me that the latest bad news is no different from all the other bad reports. We can choose how we are going to respond to it. I choose to eat from the tree of life and wait patiently for God to give me clarification or direction as to what He may want me to do. He has not told me anything so far, so I am just resting and seeking Him. I am curious how far things will go with this as I have given Him 100% right to use my life to glorify His name. I expect the unexpected. Thank you so much for the continued prayers of my spiritual family are vital to me and my family. I am feeling pretty good the past few days all the way around and I thank my Father and the body of Christ for the life that comes by His love. Stay tuned for some interesting days to come!!!

Word/vision from a friend

A friend from church shared a vision she had of me:
The Lord removed from you a cardigan with bits on it. Jesus put on you a beauty cape that covers over the body but shows off the beauty of your face. Jesus tells you how beautiful you are! To look in the mirrors all around you and see Jesus smiling at you, approving of you."you are my beautiful one Chris. I desire to gaze on your face and see how you have grown in your love for Me!"

New growths, new chemo

I have been very busy the past few weeks. My family and I had the opportunity to go back to the US and visit friends and family for 2.5 weeks. This was a great time and I even got prayed over by a seer who told me my time here on earth is not over, which is music to my ears these days. During the visit I sensed the blessing of God on the US land since the airplane landed very strongly. During the entire visit I was just tickled pink over the feeling of His presence and how He has blessed this country in every way. Other than this, I have not felt anything special or had any dreams or visions in quite some time. Absolutely nothing. I guess this is some kind of wilderness experience. Since my return, I went directly from the airport to the hospital and spent the next 3 days there doing loads of tests, exams, and scans. They found 700ml of fluid in my lung space that they drained also and ran tests on that also. They have started me on yet another new chemo and found several new tumors and growing older ones. New ones are between the lungs on the lymph there and each ovary has one too. I am really being tested and even had a woman today try to tell me God has nothing to do with it. "You just have to fight hard like me and you will beat it by yourself, God has nothing to do with it" I was so upset I could not say anything, but thought that is easy for someone to say who had never done chemo (she had not) she complained about how her hormone pills made her take a nap during the day. I told her I spent most of the week in bed and she ought to be grateful to never have had to do chemo. Fight harder, I would have liked to fight her but the love of God and my generalized fatigue prevent me from doing it physically.

Baby

OK, I am going to out on a limb here by actually posting this. I saw my cousins' unborn baby while I was sleeping last night. I was having an unrelated casual dream and it ended abruptly, then I saw her sleeping on her side. She had very dark hair and lots of it. Super cute! I just knew it was my cousins'. I was so excited I woke up and had a hard time going back to sleep. Beautiful baby girl! The thing is, my cousin is due to give birth soon and does not even know the sex of the baby. I am very curious to see what happens!

My calling...

I was told last night by The Father that He has a place for me, but we are waiting for it to open up. When it opens up, He will move me into my destiny. He did not use the word ministry, but that is the impression that I had. My calling. I am very grateful that He told me this as I had not been asking about this sort of thing these days, but He still wanted to tell me about it. I wonder what it is...